hai.
im sad.
ya.
samuel is gone.
lun siong is gone.
ya.
todae their last dae.
hai.
when lun siong go off.
i told him i will be going to his sch again.
to take eng oral.
lol.
hmm.
hai.
all mgr who is nice nice de.
all go off.
hai.
william.
fang lee.
ron.
steve.
wati.
wei tiong.
ivan.
cheryl.
and now is samuel.
hai.
SAD AH!!!
i did feel like crying.
and sam noe tat i will cry de.
he sae im silly.
ask mi not to cry.
but i did teared lah.
and i din get the chance to take his last ride home.
the happie thing is.
i did took a photo wif him!
hee!
=p
hmm.
hai.
next.
shld be louise going off.
hai.
aft she go.
kallang sux.
ARGH!!!
i reallie dun like the store now man.
reallie dunno wat josias doing man.
anyhow promote ppl de.
nv see their true colours den promote.
like lijie.
promoted to star.
but.
she doesnt like the task of a star.
the main job of being a star.
is to do hostressing.
coffee tea refill.
gif out PDP.
to conduct parties.
but she dun like it.
reallie dunno who suggested her to promote as a star.
den next.
is tat jeff.
promoting to CL soon.
den she still dare to go smoke.
when she is suppose to work.
den kena caught by mi.
wat can i do?
wat can i sae?
shld i tell them?
i reallie dunno.
wat they will do to her?
god noes.
hai.
like wat sam sae is correct.
josias juz want "quantity"
nv see "quality"
hai.
its reallie a sad ting to see my store becoming lydat lor.
ever since william is gone.
EVERYTHING totally change.
hai.
reallie sad man.
im not saeing im the best or wat lah.
at least i can sae tat im better den them.
at least im doing wat im suppose to do.
hmm.
i had a talk wif dee todae aft punch out at kfc.
she sae tat she oso regret letting lijie promoting as a star.
she tink tat she promote le.
very big liao.
den now she abit sort of hao lian lor.
den i tell dee.
she is juz a star.
dee and mi is juz a star to.
but.
we still haf mgr above us.
we are still not the biggest.
we still hafta respect them.
den lijie tink she beri big lydat.
sit inside mgr room do her things.
nv wear cap.
walking in and out of counter front.
dun she noe tat dun haf full uniform cant walk to the counter?!
mi and dee got the same thinking lor.
den she sae she will talk to lijie.
whether she is interested in promoting star or not.
if she is reallie not interested in the tasks star doing.
she can jolly well dun promote.
i dun wana see any party complaint abt her.
coz wait those mgr tink tat we the senior star din teach junior star properly.
reallie hope tat lijie will tink veri properly b4 she gif any ans.
den tat josias oso de lah.
wana haf 8 perties per sat and sun.
dun anyhow promote star.
nv see their abilities whether can or not.
coz now onli left wif mi and dee.
who can reallie conduct parties "properly"
i rather havin 6 parties per sat and sun.
den havin 8 parties wif poor qualities de.
reallie dunno when tat josias den can tink properly man.
den dee and mi oso talk abt jeff.
she oso dun like her when she is working.
ya.
i agreed wif her.
hmm.
she oso will tink tat she is veri big.
she can do everything.
ya.
sort of hao lian lah.
dee sae tat she can point middle finger at the counter front.
omg.
is tat a CL shld be doing?!
she can scold customer at the counter front.
omg.
she reallie got no government man.
dee sae tat she sae her bitch at the counter front sia.
and she scold rayson maroon.
and she is not the type tat talk softly de leh.
she speaks louder den mi de lor.
so.
imagine?!
for wat i can sae is.
she dunno when is the time to play.
she dunno when is the time to work.
ya.
we can work and play.
but.
oso hafta see when is the correct time de mah!
dee sae tat she nv gif mgr respect de.
ya.
like wat i sae lah.
she scold rayson "maroon"
dun she noe tat rayson is her 1st assistant?!
ya.
can sae him maroon.
can sae him idiot.
for all i care.
but not loudly in front of customers right?!
omg.
i reallie dun wana see tis type of CL in my store man.
hmm.
actually i reallie dun like rayson.
i dun like the way he do things.
the way he handle tings.
todae work.
i sae and shoot him mah.
he can hate mi for all i care!!!
den dee sae tat he mayb paiseh.
guess wat i told dee?
"look at my face. do u tink i care?"
omg!
my attitude sux todae!!!
ya.
i noe.
my attitude do sux sometimes.
but.
tats mi leh.
sorry if i reallie offended u.
dee oso quite fed up wif the store le.
den i told her.
actually i long ago wana leave le.
juz tat i dun bear to.
i mean the crews.
ya.
i can sae tat im veri emotional to tis kind of ting de.
coz if i leave le.
hafta find another job.
hafta adapt to new environment.
and i hate to adapt to new environment.
so.
im still working till now lor.
hmm.
i tink enough of frustration abt my store le lah.
hafta go slp le.
tml got paper.
2120.
omg.
my cham-est module.
reallie hope tat i can pass.
wish myself good luck!
=)

yawnz.
juz wake up.
dun sae i pig hor.
coz ytd i work till tis morning 3am.
lol.
quite like working midnight lor.
when those aunties went back 1am.
i run the whole kitchen sia.
power wor.
lol.
den everytime got customer suddenly come in de.
reallie dunno frm where lor.
so late liao still dun wana go home.
still come and eat mac.
lol.
hmm.
den at 3am.
louise sae she wana close pos.
so cant use the pos.
so take order hafta use paper and calculator and calculate.
omg.
can u imagine mac using paper and calculator to take order?!
lol.
hmm.
den dt got 1 sort of large order.
den my ah ma dunno how to calculate.
louise ask mi to help her.
i went to help her.
so ma fan lor.
upsized lah.
changed drink lah.
wah piang.
wana sae it out.
but didan lah.
wait kena.
lol.
den i was calculating.
i was keep saeing out "loudly" amt.
and asking correct or not.
suddenly a voice came out frm the car.
"ur voice still so loud as b4!"
omg!
i tot who?!
tot customer scold for being loud.
i turn.
is wei tiong!
wah piang eh.
scareded mi sia.
haha.
btw.
forgot to tell my ma abt the "fishball mee pok dry" story!
if i tell her.
she will sure laugh till peng de.
but.
dunno got ppl tell her or not liao leh.
later tell her.
if i still rmb lah.
lol.
hmm.
ytd b4 i went work.
i still got go to sch in the morning to study sia.
kut lat hor mi.
wahaha.
bhb sia mi.
den hor.
tat stupid kem siong gif mi 1 stupid idiotic nick.
dun wana sae.
haha.
they all call mi ** ****.
i tink already spread throughout the whole lecture grp le ba.
-_-"
hmm.
actually i tink they are lucky ba.
coz im not petty.
i tink if im petty.
we are not friends long ago liao lor.
haha.
hmm.
since im not petty.
so ppl out there will veri seldom see i angry de.
if when ever u see i angry.
means sth reallie happen lor.
yup.
hmm.
now im reallie addicted in blogging le sia.
haha.
hmm.
when i first start blogging.
i din gif anyone the add.
coz i scared wat i blog will "offend" ppl.
ppl read liao dun like it or wat lah.
but now got ppl noe my add le lah.
coz i tink.
tis is my blog wat.
u like it.
u read.
dun like it.
DUN READ LAH!
who force u to read.
since tis is my blog.
i got the right to blog watever i wan.
so now.
i dun reallie mind who noe my blog add le.
=)
and oso.
feel free and tag on my tagboard k.
hee.
=p
hmm.
hafta find 1 free dae and go and change my hp plan liao.
recently i like sms more and more sia.
somemore my free sms is onli 150!
if nv go and change soon.
every mth will kena nag liao.
lol.
hmm.
actaully i planned to changed long ago de.
but.
hmm.
tat was past.
dun wana sae it le.
=)
hmm.
"let ytd be memories
and live todae to the fullest
bcoz u will not noe wat will happen tmr"
=)

hmm.
juz came back frm sch.
ya.
grp study lor.
our grp become lesser and lesser sia.
haha.
i sort of studied all le.
but some still not veri understand lor.
ya.
will study it again.
hmm.
tml going still lor.
somemore tml im working 630pm to 3am.
sat oso.
haha.
my fav shift.
lol.
hmm.
i suddenly miss alot of things.
i miss ppl who reallie care for mi.
i miss ppl asking mi to slp early.
i miss ppl asking to haf my meals regularly.
hmm.
its reallie feel good when ppl who reallie care for u.
yup.

hmm.
hope i can post tis fast.
b4 my com hang again!
hmm.
ya.
its third dae of my study week.
had studied.
2120.
2001.
2009.
2098.
ya almost all liao.
den tml im going to study 2047 ba.
hmm.
rmb wat i tell kailin juz now.
"kailin! im a bad ger!"
=X
haha.
its a secret between mi and her.
lol.
hmm.
grp study is good for mi ba i tink.
can ask friends watever i dunno.
go lecture no use de leh.
haha.
esp 2098.
oso dun understand a single bit.
reallie lor.
he gif lecture like "mumberling" to himself de.
pai seh ah i dunno how to spell.
lol.
hmm.
better understanding at the end of the dae lor.
hmm.
ytd midnight.
oso can sae is todae early in the morning.
ard 1+am.
i still haven slp mah.
listening to 933.
got a contest wining tix to go see superstar at pub.
hmm.
den i study till sian and tired le.
so i join lor.
juz sms 1 of the guy contestants who get into the semi.
i sent derrick.
of coz!
lol.
onli first 20 sms got the tix.
i heng heng get it sia.
den seline called mi izzit mi or not.
i told her yes lor.
den juz now hung ming oso ask mi.
haha.
argh!
my com sux!
i juz restart my com!
lucky tis can recover post.
if not i du lan sia!
haha.
hmm.
ya.
tat superstar thingy.
hmm.
tink im not going lor.
im working.
coz i already promise louise tat i can work le.
so.
promise is a promise mah.
so i go work lor.
i gif up the chance to see derrick.
coz im not tat reallie crazy over him.
hmm.
yup.
but.
everything got exception de.
if tat tix is go to see 5566.
its diff le.
lol.
i will call louise i tell her i got sth impt on.
lol.
ya.
go see 5566.
haha.
i can break my promise coz of 5566.
lol.
hmm.
still can rmb.
tat was veri long ago.
i told a lie and went to 5566 de autograph session.
tat time i was still a crew lah.
den im suppose to work.
den got 5566 de autograph session.
tat one was at the esplanade tat wan.
i told the mgr i got cca.
lol.
still rmb tat mgr is adilah.
haha.
second time i din attend their autograph session is the celander tat wan.
hmm.
tat session.
i was oso working.
i reallie cant decide to go work or to go tat session.
and somemore im a star le.
cant lydat irresponsible.
dun go to work and go to the session.
if i dun go work.
no 1 can conduct the parties.
tat night i tink beri long.
and i decide to go work.
and xiu helped mi re-queue and get the autograph!
once again.
thanx my dear xiu!
=p
hmm.
but i still noe when is the time to go auto session.
and when is not the time to go auto session.
like tat time they came for westside promo.
but i was having o lvl tat time.
and somemore the next dae is geog paper.
so din go and studied.
but.
i still failed my combined humanities!
if i noe i go sia!
lol.
no lah.
no regrets tat i din go.
hmm.
im a loyal supporter of 5566 k!
5566 rox!
"xiu! correct? hee."
=p
hmm.
btw.
todae is xiu de meng zhe de 20th bdae!
hee.
hmm.
juz now i was tinking.
bu zhi be jue.
half a year had passed liao.
hai.
time reallie flies sometimes.
if u wan time to fly fast.
it wun de.
if u dun tink of it.
suddenly u tink back.
u will feel time reallie flies.
yup.
tats wat i feel lah.
=)

oh shit.
my com sux.
argh!
angry.
hmm.
yup.
todae went back to sch.
second dae of my study week.
todae got more ppl.
mi.
diana.
seline.
kailin.
johan.
jinlong.
kem siong.
philip.
and zhao quan.
hmm.
todae more happening.
jinlong got bring speakers.
den can listen to songs while studying.
wah.
tat was shiock man.
den while we studying.
we do crack some jokes.
yeah.
we study hard.
and we play hard too.
tat is call enjoying life man.
haha.
study muz still haf some fun de.
if not.
will study till bored to death de.
lol.
hmm.
den while i was studying.
i suddenly rmb sth.
my o lvl eng oral coming!
omg.
and i haven start anything yet!
if someone noe abt tis.
tat person will sure nag at mi again!
LOL~
not my mother.
=x
hey.
i will find time to study de.
dun scold mi k?
=p
hmm.
i everytime sae tat.
happie is 1 dae.
sad is oso 1 dae.
we muz as well be happie for the whole dae right?
hmm.
but.
i tink im not doing this recently.
sorry for those who worried abt mi.
hmm.
now.
i tink is thru le.
i decide to live my dae to the fullest.
i wun be sad unneccesarily le.
i wun tink of sad things often le.
yup.
tat is a promise within u and mi.
=)
reallie thanx to be there for mi always.
reallie glad to haf u all by my side always.
im a xing fu little ger afterall!
=D

hmm.
went back to sch to revise lor.
ya.
tis week is my term break.
or rather sae is my study week ba.
got mi.
diana.
jinlong.
kem siong.
philip.
norman.
zhao quan.
and hong yu.
we studied 2120.
omg.
reallie chim man.
ya.
will try my veri best to understand it ba.
we all went off ard 4+ 5 lydat ba.
ended up onli left wif 3 ppl.
mi.
diana.
and jinlong.
haha.
all went off early.
hmm.
yup.
tml going back again to study.
studying 2001 and 2009 ba.
hmm.
was chatting wif yuwei juz now.
den my com heng.
shit man.
my com sux liao.
die.
scared cant use le.
CHOY!
=X
hmm.
i was doing some 2001 de toturial and past yr paper.
some forgot how to do liao sia.
die.
tml go sch hafta do again.
haha.
hmm.
yup.
as usual.
thinking wat am i suppose to do.
hai.
reallie cant decide on any decision.
tat both decision will made mi hurt.
hai.
hmm.
the lucky thing is.
i still can get along well wif yuan ying and auntie alice.
hmm.
but.
ya.
i will still tink of him when i see them.
i tink tat is cant be avoided de ba.
i wun bcoz of him and quit my job de ba.
im not silly till tat di bu.
hmm.
so.
infront of them.
i hafta treat as nth happen.
but.
i cant treat nth had happen!
argh!
hai.
wat to do.
its my life ba.
i hafta accept it.
ming ku ah!
when will my life become better?
when will be the dae tat i dun need to tink so much?
when will the dae which i no need to fan anything?
hai.
-wOnDeR-

oh ya.
btw.
uncle geok koon is still in CCU.
coma ba i heard.
my whole store is worried abt him.
keep asking for his latest situation.
reallie hope he will get well soon.
god bless him.
=)

hmm.
back from work.
sam drove mi back!
haha.
not onli mi lah.
got ivy and yun rui.
he asked mi wat time i punch out.
i said.
"9! wait for mi!"
lol.
i noe he wana drive mi back de.
haha.
bhb sia mi.
wah.
juz now we work.
omg.
i tink we are not working man.
so damn chaostic.
he eating fishball mee pok dry.
omg.
den mi.
jefflina.
yun rui.
and sam was laughing all the while man.
LAUGHING OUT LOUD!!!
reallie loud.
omg.
the story behind it.
i bet those who reading tis now wun wana noe.
lol.
i noe it can le.
omg.
the story.
haha.
hmm.
so friends.
if next time u are having meal wif mi.
and im eating fishball mee pok dry.
and if im laughing out LOUD.
plz excuse mi.
ya.
reallie.
i mean it.
i reallie scared i cant control myself man.
lol.
ya.
so when i miss him.
i will eat.
FISHBALL MEE POK DRY!!!
i tink jeff and yunrui will do the same thing as mi.
lol.
den i told him.
when i eat it.
i will msg him and tell him.
haha.
hmm.
sae until him.
he is leaving in 1 week time.
omg.
will miss him.
lol.
hmm.
conducted 3 parties todae.
first one damn bloody NOISY.
second one okok.
third one SUX.
haha.
hmm.
xiu helped mi ordered 5566 de third album le!
thanx ger!
muackx~
=p
hmm.
hai.
sometimes i reallie wonder.
am i too stupid and silly to wait for him.
hai.
wat shld i do?
i reallie dunno.
reallie got no idea.
advice.
advice.
advice.
ADVICE PLZ?!
i reallie need tat man.
hmm.
mayb some will tink im silly.
ask mi to gif up.
some may encourage mi to wait.
other den these 2 choices.
anymore ways tat i can go?
hai.

hmm.
back home.
ya.
i went out.
but stayed at home the whole morning.
den studied 2009 the whole afternoon lor.
till evening den went out.
chat wif june.
she asked mi wana go bugis to watch band.
meng ask to go de.
i tink for some time whether wana go or not.
june ask mi to go out to relac awhile.
so i went lor.
but went j8 b4 tat.
coz june wana take her pay.
hmm.
aft tat went to bugis lor.
went to eat mos.
the whole dae i din eat much.
juz bread.
lol.
yup.
diet ba.
no appetite.
hmm.
morning i wake up.
dun feel veri well.
keep on sneezing.
flu ba.
but din took action abt it.
hmm.
den aft our dinner at mos.
we went to watch the dunno wat band lor.
coz meng got friend performing.
den ended up queue veri behind.
his friend tell him he can go off.
coz when he perform veri late le.
so we went off lor.
den we meet sudiman there.
they 2 went to ktv.
mi n june din go.
they go 10pm to 2am sia.
so we went to bugis village shop.
i bought a bag.
haha.
i hafta stop thinking of buying bag le.
for a period of time lah.
i got too many bags le.
lol.
next i wana buy is shoe.
yup.
i got c&k de discount vouchers.
yup.
going to buy 1 dae soon.
ya real soon.
next week ba.
hmm.
i had ever heard a saeing.
saeing tat aft every relationship end.
u will learn from ur own mistake.
hmm.
yup.
i agreed.
ya.
i will reallie learn from my mistake.
which is to.
"APPRECIATE"
tis word will appear in my mind every now and den.
yup.
i will reallie learn to appreciate things/ppl more den b4.

hmm.
back from work.
actually i punch out at 8pm de.
den actually had planned to go to harry's bar wif june they all de.
but ended up i din go lah.
coz i was tired and lazy.
somemore i din bring clothes.
so din go lor.
hmm.
den oso reallie veri lazy to go home.
hoping someone who can drive mi home.
FAT HOPE!
of coz dun haf lah.
hmm.
den sit down in the mgr room.
talk talk.
kpo tis kpo tat.
den ended up im at the MDS there.
1 shot 4 orders!
siao sia.
so i helped lor.
den aft tat clear liao.
DT heavy.
-_-"
but jefflina.
janice.
and faridah was there.
so i din help much.
hmm.
den look at the counter front.
OMG!
the ppl dunno pop out from where sia.
den i went to do fries!
lol.
my fav station when customer in.
=p
den i help help help.
1030pm liao.
haha.
faridah was so worried abt mi sia.
she dunno i always work for love de.
lol.
im lovin' it mah!
=D
i asked her not to worry lah.
i went off ard 1045+ lydat.
coz the ppl slow down liao.
hmm.
yup.
i reallie cant go work early de.
no matter how early i work.
i will still reach home b4 midnight de.
ya lor.
so i onli can work night shift de.
coz can take cab home and can claim!
lol.
so no need to worry hafta walk to bus stop.
need to wait for bus.
need to take bus.
need to walk from bus stop to home.
LOL~

auntie anna ask mi buying anything for sam or not.
i sae no lah.
den she sae can collect frm every crew some amount.
den go buy sth for him.
like wat we did for steve tat time.
she sae buy mp3.
-_-"
omg.
does he need a mp3?
i doubt so ba.
den i tell her.
if wana buy.
buy sth tat is memorable lah!
buy mp3.
memorable shit lah!
lol.
but dun tink we are buying anything ba.
nobody is leading.
i wana lead oso dunno how to lead sia.
not like last time for steve.
got wati to lead.
now.
who will wana lead.
i doubt any mgr will wana lead lor.
i reallie wana lead.
but.
i tink got no enough time le ba.
left wif 1 week onli.
how am i going to collect money from all the crews.
wif mi working onli 1 or 2 daes per week.
aiya.
so.
dunno leh.
actually i long ago wana call up yuwei wana buy him sth or not.
but i din call lah.
hmm.
i dunno wat to do lah.

later ba.
got no band prac.
not going to work.
not going out too ba.
actually had asked kailin wana go study or not.
since im free.
she din cfm wif mi.
so its ok lor.
shld be staying at home lor.
if she still din cfm wif mi anything in the morning.
staying at home to study lor.
reallie hope tat i can reallie study.
reallie absorb.

hmm.
i online.
saw des nick.
he sae he cant gif up.
he is sth but juz not yet being appreciate.
ya.
i reallie admit tat i din appreciate him to the fullest tat time.
is he trying to tell mi?
or im juz tinking too much?
i reallie dunno.
i reallie can wait till aft o lvls for his ans de.
YA I REALLIE CAN WAIT!
to mi.
the word "wait" is reallie nth to mi le.
i reallie dun mind waiting for someone who i still miss alot.
can i sae i still love him?
simply saeing.
my feeling for him is still there.
so.
aft o lvls he still haf no action abt it.
i tink i shld consider to si xin ba.
my deadline for him is my bdae.
yup.
so during my bdae.
i will either veri happie.
or i will be veri veri sad.
hmm.
juz see ba.
see mi and him still got fate or not ba.
if dun haf.
i oso dunno do we still haf the chance to be friends or not.
hai.
so now till end of o lvls.
or till my bdae.
do i live wif hopes?
better not.
"the higher u hope the greater dissapointment u will get"
still rmb wat ms tay tell mi b4 i get my o lvls results.
"hope for the best and prepare for the worst"
so i will prepare for my worst.
is to be veri sad lor.
ya.
ar bo wat else can i do?
treat as nth happen?
NO I CANT DO TAT!
sad for how long?
no idea.
few daes?
few weeks?
few mths?
fews yrs?
reallie got no idea.

wana tell kailin sth.
no matter wat happen.
or any happen.
there is sure solution to it de.
u can tink of any solutions.
but.
PLZ.
PLZ.
PLZ.
dun tink of death.
death is NOT 1 of ur solutions to ur problem.
death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
its reallie not worth it at all.
ya.
its true.
u are juz avoiding ur problem tats all.
tink abt it ba.
but if u dun agree wif it.
i reallie got nth to sae le.
hmm.
coz i was kinda sad during the chat where u said u wana jump.
u was saeing u was juz kidding.
but.
i reallie hope tat u are reallie juz kidding.
hmm.
tis kind of thing.
dun tink of it too often.
i believe its good for urself if u dun tink of it too often.
yup.
=)

hmm.
hai.
im confused.
im vexed.
wo hen fan.
wo hen luan.
they kept on talking abt mi and jinlong!
omg.
i reallie dunno wat to do man.
i juz noe tat.
i cant fall in love again unless i had forgotten des.
hmm.
but i tink there is no possibility tat i can forget him de lor.
ya.
once again.
bcoz of auntie alice and yuan ying lor.
hmm.
or i cant fall in love again unless i got no feelings for him.
stop caring abt him.
but.
when will tat dae come?
how much time do i still need?
3yrs?
5yrs?
hai.
by the time im old le sia.
hai!!!
ARGH!!!
reallie feel like crying.
i mean cry out loud.
SOB!!!
ppl sae to overcome ur previous love.
hafta commit in a new love.
but i dun agree.
i tink its reallie unfair to the new partner.
he/she is juz a replacement to forget the previous one.
hai.
reallie moody now.
hai.
heart pain.
heart broke.
hai.
juz now night class chat wif shinyi in msn.
she still dunno mi and des break.
still sae.
"not like u and ur boi so loving"
hai.
reallie feel like crying on the spot.
im tearing.
but tears din drop.
hai.
mayb i dun look like juz shi lian.
and i may look dun care.
or dun look treasure tis relationship.
BUT!
I DO CARE!
I DO TREASURE!
but.
i juz dunno how to tell all my friends abt tis.
wana wan mi sms 1 by 1 tell meh.
siao.
hai.
the first one who noe it .
i dunno who lah.
but the first one who ask mi abt tis.
is.
kailin ba.
den those gers noe le.
den got regards from my jies.
hai.
am i looking strong?
or im juz acting strong?
yun said im strong.
in the sense of not the same as last time ba.
hai.
i reallie wana be loved.
but.
i cant be selfish.
its reallie unfair.
hai.
wat i shld do now?
wat can i do now?
hai.
the suet everyone is seeing now is not the suet used to be ba i tink.
i realie dunno when den i can be the suet i used to be.
ya.
now u can see mi happie everydae.
always laughing.
joking all the while.
but.
who reallie noes and who will reallie understand.
wat am i tinking deep in my mind?
how do i feel deep in my heart?
hai.
the next guy who reallie wana get hold of my heart.
plz be careful.
my heart is reallie veri frugel.
plz take care of it.
if u dun haf the meaning of taking care of it.
plz dun touch it.
or better dun get near of it.
i reallie dunno i can take another setback or not.
or mayb i might be crazy.
coz now i nearly become crazy le.
hai.
sob.
=:::(

hmm.
juz now kailin ask mi for my blog add.
i din gave it to her.
coz reallie got ALOT of my things mah.
hmm.
but.
i think it thru le.
i decided to gif it to her le.
hey kailin!
u muz feel wei da leh.
u are the first one who i gave my blog add leh.
hee!
=p
hmm.
but.
if u read le feel offended.
im reallie sorrie.
i apologize.
tat are all my true and real feelings.
and i tink tats the reason of blogging ba.
hee.
ok?
happie reading ba.
=)
will update again later.
gona watch my superstar results!
bleah!

omg.
i study till i nearly forgot to blog!
lol.
hmm.
sian.
sch 12 to 3 onli.
den went home straight.
online awhile.
bathe.
study 2120.
coz got quiz tml.
or later ba.
den study abit had dinner.
watched superstar.
DERRICK ROX!!!
i voted for him.
yup.
first time i vote.
lol.
hmm.
aft tat continue study till now lor.
sian lor.
study 2120.
tried to understand abit lor.
real bit.
lol.
hmm.
afternoon surfed bartley de website.
omg.
i reallie miss there alot alot man.
den went to obs de site too.
got bartley sch song.
omg.
miss tat alot too.
hai.
reallie miss those daes man.
those daes are reallie memorable man.
cant be forgotten.
I LOVE BARTLEY!!!
=p

hmm.
went to ard 8.
den i board the bus.
when i look out.
i saw jin kai.
but he din saw mi lah.
den when i was at amk waiting for 159.
saw zihao.
lol.
so qiao.
saw 2 of them.
yup.
den went for my lab test.
die.
i onli noe how to do the first part.
second part dunno how to do.
hai.
onli get 50% lor.
hai.
sad lah.
hmm.
den finish sch ard 5+.
heading towards expo for a vegetarian dinner.
wif my mother and friends.
it is actually a racial harmony celebration.
hmm.
quite nice.
hmm.
so juz reach home lor.
hmm.
sae des nick again.
"wat am i??i am nothing but a piece of uesless thing!!"
hai.
when i see it.
im sad.
my heart sink.
i heart pain.
hai.
but i tink he wun noe how i feel ba.
hai.
hmm.
i tink within these short period of time.
i wun accept a new relationship.
coz i realise tat i kept on tinking of des every now and den.
it is not veri fair to the other partner if i keep on doing this.
yup.
hai.
hmm.
i tink i wun be buying anything for sam le ba.
coz if i buy for him.
den when louise go i oso muz buy.
if not.
i feel veri wat leh.
so might as well dun buy for all.
lol.
hmm.
shanen friendster msg mi.
hee.
yup.
will reply her.
hmm.
omg.
common test is reallie drawing near!
somemore i everydae got paper.
coz of tat 2047 lah.
sian lah!
hmm.
nvm.
juz tolerate for 2 more weeks.
and common test will be over le.
yup.
=)
look at the bright side.
hmm.
now im going to reply shanen le!
hee.
=p

hmm.
todae woke up at 10+.
bathe.
den listen to 933 de music diary.
i cried.
sob.
coz the story similar to mine.
the guy stop contacting wif the ger.
3 daes like 3 yrs.
cannot tahan.
called him up.
ask him wat he wan.
he said no more feelings le.
den broke up.
den the ger was saeing.
so all his promises are fake?
are all ur promises fake too?
she miss her warm huggies.
i missed his too.
she miss the way he wipe her tears.
i missed tat too.
she miss the way how he made her happie.
i miss tat too.
she miss the way how he eat.
i miss tat too.
she miss his cuteness.
i miss his too.
i miss those daes he walked home wif mi.
when i get to past the roads.
i will think of u.
i miss ur voice.
i miss the way u looked into my eyes.
i miss the way i looked into ur eyes too.
i miss hearing ur heartbeats.
ARGH!
I MISS HIS EVERYTHING!!!
sob.
hmm.
ok.
i think i will get over it de.
like wat i had said.
i juz need somemore time ba.
hmm.
sch.
was ok ba.
juz kena disturb my tat dr lim.
hai.
den lab.
hafta connect tis connect tat.
argh.
hate tat.
hmm.
tml got 2009 de lab test.
wah.
die.
jialat.
i dunno anything.
lol.
got "ans" frm jinlong.
but he oso dunno correct or not.
of coz i oso dunno lah.
juz take it down lor.
better den nth.
den the test im the second batch.
going sch later lor.
den jinlong sae he will tell mi wat the qns once he finish.
coz he first batch.
hmm.
yup.
hope i can do it lor.
=)
hmm.
saw des de msn nick.
he keep on sae "failure" de.
hai.
i reallie hope tat he dun keep on saeing himself is a failure.
but i dunno wana use which medium to tell him.
hai.
hmm.
oh ya.
ytd night b4 i slp.
i was thinking of buying sth for sam.
think of buying a pen.
but dunno go where buy a good pen.
and oso dunno hows the price like.
hmm.
ya.
juz look ard ba.
hmm.
die.
din do any maths tutorial.
keep on studying the 2009 de lab rest.
hafta go do le ba.
if not tml he dunno wana sae wat le.
ciaoz!

hmm.
todae.
or.
ytd ba.
sway dae for mi ba.
conduct party.
kena F.
did counter.
oso kena F.
went to kpo MDS.
screw up.
wah piang.
wat the hell man.
did everything.
and everything goes wrong.
suppose punch out at 8pm.
but din went home.
sat in the mgr room.
chat wif sam.
kpo mds.
write emc names.
tidy up some bp file stuffs.
bla bla bla.
den sam 11pm finish work.
den he send mi home.
hee.
he drived fast.
ask mi scared or not.
haha.
i told him.
i like it.
haha.
ya.
i like drivers who drive fast.
veri shiock.
haha.
hmm.
juz now sam told mi tat he still dunno wat he gonna do aft he leave.
mayb opening a cafe.
i asked him to ask mi go over.
hee.
yup.
mayb will go over if he ask mi ba.
but dunno when leh.
hmm.
can consider tis choice.
=)
hmm.
i got a feeling tat sam noes tat i and des break le.
juz tat he didan wana sae it out.
yup.
if i tell him.
he will sae tat he noe.
den when i ask him how he noe.
he will sae can see wat.
yup.
coz.
i noe lor.
haha.
hmm.
oh ya.
i realised sth.
sam and lun siong leave kallang on the same dae.
and these 2 guys.
will reallie leave mi a sweet memories man.
hai.
they 2 leave on the same dae.
last dae on the same dae.
omg.
i can take it or not.
can ba.
will be sad onli lor.
will miss them lor.
yup.
mayb will miss them alot ba.
hai.
wat to do.
in life.
ppl will come and go.
the most greatful thing is.
they will leave their footprints in my life.
in my memory.
samuel.
lun siong.
i will rmb u always.
muz rmb tat u once noe mi k.
plz dun forget mi.
i will miss u de.
hai.
13 more daes to go.
will keep in contact ba.
i suppose.
hmm.
wish lun siong all the best in his studies.
hope he will achieve better results.
wish sam all the best in his future career.
hope he will open his own cafe soon.
yup.
=)

phew.
juz came back from the bbq.
im tired.
im full.
i ate alot.
ALOT!
OMG!
IM FAT!
hai.
sad man.
will try to do more exercise more often ba.
hmm.
later working at 12pm.
hai.
asked for my schedule oso beri cham.
asked sam "u haven write my schedule ah?"
he replied "louise haven write meh?"
called louise.
she ans "sam shld write de mah."
omg.
wat the hell is tat man.
ask tis ask tat.
hmm.
ya i noe.
sam is going off.
but i tink he still need to be responsible for his work b4 he leave lor.
ya.
made mi veri fed up u noe.
i tink i got the right not to go work lor.
gif mi last min schedule.
hai.
things had reallie changed.
now.
even crews can sit in the mgr room to eat.
wat the hell.
wat rule is tat.
and crew can even ans phone call without permission.
wah piang eh.
reallie no gorvenment lor.
i tink is double standard ba.
i believe some mgr wun allow these kind of things to happen lor.
i object.
i dun allow.
but.
i dun haf the right to sae anything.
since the mgr din sae anything.
so.
i juz keep quiet lor.
wat to do.
im juz a small little star.
ya.
although im higher rank den those crews.
afterall i still haf mgr on top of mi.
so.
i diam lor.
=|
hmm.
yup.
juz now went to the chalet.
its at ntuc downtown east.
its the same one tat i went wif kailin they all during my holidaes.
i went wif des.
hai.
it remind mi of everything.
hai.
sad.
reallie sad.
will all my memory be erased?
hmm.
i dun think so.
i think my memory storage is greater den anything.
hai.
wat to do.
tats mi.
hai.
actually i reallie wana noe wat does he tink of mi now.
wat am i to him now.
a friend.
a stranger.
a nobody.
or.
nth.
hai.
hmm.
i oso wana now how is ivan mong doing now.
reallie got no news bt him at all lor.
reallie lost contact wif him.
for a couples of yrs le ba.
hmm.
he quit sch when i was sec3 ba.
aft tat.
din see him le.
no news abt him le.
till now.
hmm.
abt 3yrs le ba.
hmm.
he once told mi tat he father got one carrot cake shop near my hse.
get to walked pass there recently.
saw a teenager at the shop.
think tat is his bro ba.
but din see him b4.
hmm.
yup.
but.
wat if he is there?
will i go over and sae hi to him?
reallie got no idea.
when tat dae come and see how i react ba.
hmm.
will i still keep in contact wif des in the future?
hai.
i noe.
although we had broke up.
we once true love each other.
but!
i tink we can still keep in contact right!
hai.
mayb he dun think the same way as mi ba.
how i wish i can read ppl's mind.
i wish.
i wish.
i wish.

wah.
sian.
juz wake up.
waiting for time to pass.
3+ go j8 meet june.
yup.
wat shld i do now.
hmm.
study ba.
yup.
alot of daes din study le.
omg.
die.
ya.
i better go study.
b4 anything happen.
haha.

hmm.
lun siong had resigned.
31july last dae.
hmm.
im sad ba.
i said once.
coz once i reallie cared for him.
hope tat we can still stay in contact.
i kept on asking him to study hard.
i reallie want him to study hard.
to achieve good results.
coz recently he told mi tat his results ain't very good.
yup.
hope he can do it.
hmm.
lun siong.
muz reallie study hard k.
any probs.
still can look for mi.
i will help u wif all i can.
dun disappoint mi k.
hee.
hope u will keep mi updated wif ur results wor.
once again.
"study hard wor lun siong!"
=)

hmm.
ytd ba.
went to jb wif june!
yup!
we did our hair!
mine is cut + highlight + treatment.
june is colouring + treatment.
coz tat dae she went there and cut le.
june and mi love the result.
yup.
mine is RM178.
june's RM138.
where to find these price in singapore.
haha.
hmm.
den rush back for work.
had informed siew wah earlier on tat i will be late.
heavy rain somemore.
but dee came out and shelter mi.
thanx dee!
hmm.
den conducted a adult's party.
oh.
it.
SUX!
dun wana sae abt it le lah!
ANGRY!
hmm.
i guess my store de indo crew david like mi.
OMG!
or im juz over sensitive?
the way he talk to mi.
his actions.
reallie make mi tink so.
hope not ba.
tat time the indo crew dody like mi i almost crazy.
hmm.
ok.
dun wana tok abt tat le.
hmm.
told serene tat had broke up wif des le.
she asked mi y.
juz briefly told her.
dun wana tell her much.
coz auntie alice was there.
hmm.
later afternoon going to downtown for bbq.
meeting june before tat.
4pm.
at j8 cartel.
she finish work at 4pm.
hmm.
yup.
den we go together lor.
hmm.
will hope for a better tomorrow!
=)